got drunk on thursday night in napa. started watching a movie, ended up at a renegade where me and serena were the oldest bitches there. on top of that, citrus showed up with chewy and pez, the group i went to stilldream with and as soon as i got there citrus was like "pez has been looking for you all night" and i'm thinking "1) i only heard about this party an hour ago, how would he know that i'd show up? and 2) why does he care?" so i say hi and everything and start dancing then he starts dancing with me and then we're making out. then i realize i'm drunk and he's rolling and i'm like "no, we're hella fucked up" but then he keeps making moves on me and i give him my phone number and he's being really cute and sweet (guys, you would think he's cute) but...let's be honest, he's 17. i'm going to end up on megan's list.

got drunk on saturday and went skinny dipping at a high school roll party. i'm not even sure how to explain that one.

so i went to see barry on sunday. ang, i haven't told you about him yet, in a nutshell he's a 30 year old dj i had been chatting shit with for a couple months and he guestlisted me for a party on saturday. it was cool, i was kinda looking for a booty call but i had kinda flaked on him and he didn't pick up condoms so it was a little foreplay and we kicked it watching movies for a little.

but i was thinking about reefer all day yesterday. so it was really weird when he called on skype and we talked for SIX HOURS last night. we only closed the chat cuz i was falling asleep. i was really happy to talk to him, but i felt kinda bad. he's been having a rough time the past couple weeks and he's been really down but he was really happy to be talking to me, he said it and i could see it. it was mostly a lot of "i miss yous" and "i still love yous" from both sides. he also said it would be harder for him to come to america than it would be for me to get back there, so he's going to get a job and work to bring me back for a week. i wasn't lying. i do miss him. and i love him. i know i'm too young to say i know no one will ever treat me like him again, but let's admit it wouldn't be easy to find someone else like him. a girl i just went to school with in london, the dumb beezy tried to keep up a relationship with this guy in france and ran up a $800 phone bill trying to contact him but the phone company reduced it to $500. he dumped her.

so now i feel like a bitch.

btw, kinda off topic but i love and hate the new taking back sunday song but not the same way that i love-hate their old ones. i don't know how to explain it.

scott called last night at 9 and said he was coming back soon. at 12 i texted asking where he was, at 2:30 he sent a message saying his plans changed and he was staying wherever he was that night. but that's not the problem.

i came back and was super attracted to ionas who has gotten himself a modeling contract and has/had a crush on laura who is now dating some dude she met at work. gerard is single (but might have a crush on polina who has a boyfriend in finland) and coming back today. hannah, freya, and james said they are sad that he broke up with lisa cuz he'll start to realize what he missed. i told them i think those two just need some time apart because it never really seemed like they got on real well. i told selina i'd teach gerard to appreciate lisa more :insert dirty wink here:.

...but i told selina that after james and hannah laid the big news of the night on me: they said they saw scott kissing his next door neighbor that night that gerry was here hitting on me. they said they didn't tell me cuz they thought i'd be hurt but i even surprised myself by how much i didn't care. it's kinda affected how i feel about him a little in the sense that i don't feel bad that i want to flirt with ionas and gerard and i don't feel like running into his arms when i see him again, but otherwise i'm fine. i think i needed to hear that, i was starting to lose myself. i'm also thinking about ending it altogether and just staying friends, but i think i need to decide on that after i see him.

everybody told me they missed me hella and i went to sleep after a long heart-to-heart with ionas on facebook chat ^_^ this term is going to be interesting. interesting and dramatic.

...that we're not spending our 21st birthdays together? we're best fucking friends. we should be puking in the streets together on our birthdays. so i propose that on december 21, the day after i get back, we have an EPIC shman 21st celebration. when you think about it it makes sense...

the 21st cuz we're turning (or will have already turned in the case of angie) 21.
the 21st is two months and one day off from kara's birthday
it's december so it'll be angie's birthday month
and 21 is my birthday backwards.

i propose we get super fucking hammered and do something exciting. maybe even cake and ice cream. and party hats. who's with me????

angela, where are youuuuuuuuu?????

so, yeah, that message i sent to you on saturday night/early sunday morning: the kid in the blanket was rolling and he was feeding me drinks (well, i guess he didn't feed them to me, i took them happily) so we became like friends for the night. but then i was trying to hit on eric but then this kid started touching me more and more like rubbing my leg and then it moved to wrapping me in the blanket with him then he was kissing my cheeks and i didn't know how to tell him to stop and it was right in front of eric which is why i said i keep fucking this stuff up. so yeah, that's my story.





ohh, here's a nice one where i realized budd was hitting on me...stupid fucking e-tard love. he probably woke up and was like "who the fuck was i hitting on?"




i'm so confused. i think i may give up. he's so cute and sometimes i think he likes me and other times i think i'm just being pathetic.


oh, and the dude standing in the last picture: he is the shit. he kinda reminded me of gilman. just a chill motherfucker.

it's not fair that someone can just walk out the door and never come back without you anticipating it.

i miss her already.

AWKWARD TURTLE!

I LOVE IT!

IT'S SO CUTE!

it is ridiculous how excited i am about coming home tomorrow

ok okok

Kara, is Matt(ie) your math boy? I get confuzzled.

Ok, so I definitely told Niel about Sam's crush on Justin in a semi-drunken stupor. It was a last resort, I couldn't get him and Mike to quit calling Justin's name and Sam was going to cry later if I didn't get them to stop...God, none of you would know what I'm talking about, not even Kara but I need to write this down. I figured if I could get Niel (the sober one) to stop doing it then Mike would stop, too. And Mike is the one who Sam really cares about so in retrospect it was a semi-good plan...I think. Sam should have never brought up Justin in the first place.

I've never been this intoxicated before on a school night; high or drunk. I'm not that bad off. or I wouldn't be on a weekend...but I have CLASS tomorrow and it's 2:30 and I sitll have h-dubz to do (HW or homework for those not familiar with Cali talk which is all of you). I dunno, at least I can still work a computer and that's all I need to do. Work a computer and tell it to grammar check in Spanish...God I fuckihg hate espanol.

It feels good, though. Being drunk on a school night. I took a real shot for like the first time in my ife and SamLamb took a double. Aww, my padawan. Now I just need to teach her to like good (or semi-good music). ELITIST = ME!!!

all i've been listening to the past few days is street punk.

its so weird

the casulaties - nov. 4 at the metro. thought i should let you know since i will not be attending.

however...

i know you wanna see wolf eyes with me on nov. 22, riiiiiight?

i found your saved draft kara. i'm sorry you feel that way. we'll be together soon!

anyway, as i was about to say...

dear mike:
you have a great body. please walk around without a shirt more often. it would make me and sam really, really, really happy.

MUCHO amor, kyra from 410






yes, his body is THAT good.

Dear Kara, you don't owe me shit. How many times have I dumped my shit on you?

Tonight was pretty calm until we were waiting for the bus in the Haight-Ashbury. Two dealers got in a fight over our corner. Apparently one of them had been selling there for the last 20 years. It was funny until they started getting really close to me. Meep. O.0

This was pointless.

I think I'm gonna go to the free Blood Brothers release party in San Fran. I'll drag Candy and Brittany along by the hair if I have to, I'm GOING!

Frownies.




Candy or Alex or whoever made them is a complete evil genius.

EXCETATE!

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